Demi Lovatois opening up about the “scary time” in her life after her overdose, when she wasn’t sure if she’d ever return to music.

Speaking withAndy Cohenon theRadio AndySiriusXM Radio Showon Thursday, Lovato talked about her new song “Anyone” and how much it meant to be able toperformit at the Grammy Awards on Sunday.

“Well that song, I knew that it represented that period in my life when everything hit the fan,” Lovato said, referencing heroverdosein July 2018.

The 27-year-old songstress said that “Anyone” “represented exactly what I was going through, the vulnerability.”

“I also was really proud of the vocal and I thought, ‘I’ve never had a moment like this, you know, where I’ve sat down at a piano or that I’ve stood next to a piano and sang my heart out,” Lovato explained.

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“I’ve never had one of those moments on an awards show, and I thought, ‘you know, if I ever come back from this’ — because I was still in the hospital and I didn’t know — and I thought, ‘if I ever come back from this, I end up going back to music and I’m on stage and I get a first performance, I want it to be at the Grammys and I want it to be this song.'”

When Cohen asked her if that meant she consciously thought she may not return to her singing career, the “Confident” sing responded “absolutely.”

“I think as time goes on, I’ll be able to give more information or more details and things like that, but just in a general, it was a general thought,” Lovato said. “We didn’t know what was going to happen. We didn’t know how healthy I’d be when I left, it was a scary time in my life for sure.”

Lovato received astanding ovationat theGrammy Awards, where she was so overcome with emotion that she had to start the song over.

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The musician talked about the song, which was written and recorded before her overdose, in an interview withZane Lowe on New Music Daily for Apple Music’s Beats 1earlier this month.

“I almost listen back and hear these lyrics as a cry for help,” she said. “And you kind of listen back to it and you kind of think, ‘How did nobody listen to this song and think, ‘Let’s help this girl?'”

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“I was recording it in a state of mind where I felt I was okay, but clearly I wasn’t,” Lovato said. “I even listen back to it and I’m like, ‘Gosh, I wish I could go back in time and help that version of myself.’”

Lovato arrived in Miami, Florida, on Thursday ahead of her upcoming performance atSuper Bowl LIV, where she will sing the National Anthem.

“I’m here in Miami! Ready for theSuper Bowl!!” Lovatowrote on Instagram. “Let’s do this!! ???”

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source: people.com